Rummination part deux

I am getting delirious from insomnia.  I have an appointment tomorrow so I am very excited about that. I am shocked about how casual medical providers are about dispensing medication. I was given Celexa for severe post-partum depression. I have a huge history of P.D. and Agoraphobia but hadn't needed medication for years. I am thinking my body chemistry has recovered from the whole pregnancy breast feeding and is now is processing the drug in a new way. It has stopped working and I am having severe side effects. I went to urgent care and they took me off cold turkey and put me on trazadone. I seriously have gained 10 lbs in 3 weeks. Not such a good drug. And until I researched it, did not know it was for anxiety. They put on my discharge papers sleep aid. I had no idea I was taking another anti anxiety medication. Sigh! So now I have a list, I have checked it twice, and no I am not santa but I know everything I have been on in the past. I am now in need of something as the Celexa has put me in a manic state. The past three year of stressors rival those of most lifetimes...not to bore you but...birth of my daighter (yay) severe post-partum (boo) the death of my daughter's father, my younger sister abandoning her son and choosing drugs and alcohol in her life (big whatever) becoming the parent to the sweetest 11 yr old boy (manual anyone?!) my daughter has a seizure disorder (hopefully will outgrow it) No one but one friend is willing to watch my daughter. I have been with my daughter since her birth, every singe day of her life except for 12 hours when she went to my dad's house. Moving three times because my mom could not be around the baby when she has seizures (not complaining I get it, Heck! I don't want to be around either! :O}) Money issues due to my ex-husband not paying on his debt. (I am doing a financial re-organization Yuck!) And a former boss who is a liar (thank goodness everyone else knows he is and the impact on my professional reputation is minimal)  No wonder I am a bit nutty! I do have some great friends. I can play a little soccer if I can get a babysitter. I have this crazy busy life! How do I relcaim it and NOT let my illnesses rear their ugly heads? Or how do I minimize the impact? I am fighting tooth and nail to maintain normalacy for my daughter. I am trying so hard. Going to the grocery store is like pulling teeth...I am having a low moment! And need some words of encouragement! Shew! I obviously needed to vent too!  Lu