When i read your comment just now i completely identify with everything! i have been dealing with depression my whole life and i know how those bad days can be. on top of the guilt of feeling ungrateful for what you have, ie "i SHOULD feel happy" or "i should be able to snap out of it". the truth is that depression is a disorder and not a choice. i have been on and off antidepressants over the years and i found them helpful- you just need to find one that works for you or maybe the levels need adjusting. please do not try to increase dosage without consulting your dr. not a good move. take care and remember you are not alone. there are lots of people out there who understand what it's like