Having a bad day

Today is an awful day for me, I am more depressed than usual. I can't keep from crying my eyes out, I should be so grateful for everything but right now I don't care if the sun ever comes up. It is freezing here at the beach today, maybe weather may have something to do with my mood. I went to the gym yesterday but can't make it out today, wow, what a difference a day makes. I have been thinking about increasing my Neurontin or Prozac, afraid to mess with my Wellbutrin. I know I'm not qualified to tell myself to increase my meds but I have to do something to make myself feel better. I go see my Dr. next week so I guess I should wait and discuss this with them on my visit, this is another issue, I do not have a person in the mental health field, my Ruhmatoligist and regular MD. prescribes my medicine.Sometimes I think I need someone to monitor me more closely with all these meds but as you probably know," Insurance "is a major issue.