Saturday I had a cold and felt miserable and wrote a journal entry for my care website. I really felt like death would be preferable to life. But when I get really depressed I lose all energy, resolve, will, focus, concentration . . . I could never kill myself because if I had what it took to make and carry out a plan, I... Read more
One of the reasons I lost my previous job was because I used most of my sick time. Because of my depression, I recently took a month off, and of course that used up all my sick time and vacation time. Now I have been having severe headaches. Besides the constant dull ache in my head, periodically it feels like a knife... Read more
When my depression is in full swing, sometimes I wonder, "If I had a fairy godmother who could magically give me what I would need to get better, what would it be?" It always includes some way that counseling and medication --and maybe even time off from work or a reduced work schedule-- could be paid for without my having to go... Read more
I feel better now than I have felt for at least 10 years, maybe 20 --maybe more, I don't remember! I've been dealing with depression off and on since childhood. I wasn't actually diagnosed until about 8 or 9 years ago. At that time I tried Serzone, which was horrible-- I was angry all the time and snapped at... Read more