Sometimes the buffet of life brings you seconds and dessert long before you've had time to contemplate picking up your fork to deal with what was initially in front of you. That's how I feel today, there is just so much happening I don't know where to begin. Next week marks the beginning of final exams and since my laptop was stolen and notes erased I'm pretty much doing them from memory yikes! Next week is also the week an assignment worth 45% of my grade is do again yikes! But if thats not enough stress on me I'm also in the midst of packing to move to my own place which is going to be a great benefit in the long run but right now it just feels like another headache.
On top of all of that last night I was rushed to hospital by a friend during our Psychology class in intense pain, to find that I have ovarian cysts and will most likely need surgery in the days ahead as the symptoms are very noticeable and increasingly painful. So what you may be wondering is, what does this have to do with my depression? Well for me my depression symptoms and stress go hand in hand the more stressed I feel the more easily I bottom out emotionally and with no family support or encouragement I just feel very much alone in times like these.
No one seems to care when I'm hurting, they just care if I'm well enough to cover their shifts at work (they called me in today from 9am-11pm) and thats after being in the hospital till 2:30 this morning nice right?
I just feel like crying, and being angry all at the same time, I'm never really sure how to deal with my emotions cause expressing them in my family is NOT okay ever!
*sigh*
Does anyone have ways of handling intense emotions they could share with me, that would be a great help and comfort.
Izzy
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