alone..trying not to hold bitterness towards people

Hi Sam,

I read your profile and related to feeling alone!  In my opinion, loneliness is crippling and very difficult to fight.  I lost both my parents in my early twenties, then the devasting blow of losing a twin really finished me off.  I am bipolar and like u, allienated all of my friends.  I hear anger in yr comments and that too, is something I have to constantly work on.  I never had a home but always had a good job, with company car, expenses, etc. until the last two jobs I cudn't cope with and now I live on social welfare.  Just typing those words anger me. 

Sam, I think that your daughters' going to live with their dad is a blessing in disguise.  It will give u the attention u need to take care of u!  My eldest son called me crazy, nutso and many other degrating words as he cudnt copy with my illness.  So last year he moved out on his own and I live with my youngest who understands my condition and lets me be when im not well.

My only advice to you is to let go of the anger (and u have many reasons to be angry) because it is holding YOU down.  I know this as when my dad died I hadn't said one word to him in 4 years!  I told myself it was better that he died as he abused us for many years and I was an ANGRY woman who blamed my shitty life on anyone.  This blocked me from working on myself and I've only started to get out of the house and on some days, get out of bed!

Please dont give up - you now have the opportunity to work on just YOU!  Take advantage of it, treat yourself well and most of all try to LAUGH a little!!!

HI,I JUST WANTED TO SHARE WITH YOU THAT I FEEL YOUR PAIN GIRL.I KNOW SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE THE WORLD IS CAVING IN ON US,BUT THATS WEN WE HAVE TO BE AT ARE STRONGEST.I HEARD SOMEBODY SAY;WE DONT KNOW HOW STRONG WE ARE,UNTIL STRONG IS ALL WE HAVE LEFT.

ABOUT YOUR DAUGHTERS I THINK,ITS GOOD FOR NOW THAT THEY ARE WITH THEIR DAD,AT LEAST YOU KNOW THEY ARE SAFE AND TAKEN CARE OF.(RITE) SO THAT GIVES YOU ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD TO FOCUS ON YOU.YOU HAVE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED TO GET YOURSELF BETTER,AND GET BACK ON YOUR FEET AND START TAKING CARE OF BUISNESS.I KNOW IT MUST BE HARD HAVING YOUR KIDS DO THAT TO YOU,AND I KNOW IT MUST BE HARD NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE THEM LIKE YOU WANT TOO.BUT RITE NOW IS THE TIME TO TAKE CARE OF YOU... SO TRY YOUR BEST TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR SELF,AND IF YOU NEED TO TALK,OR CHAT JUST FEEL FREE TO WRITE ME,I AM HERE FOR HELP AS WELL.. BUT IM HERE TO HELP HOW EVER I CAN TOO CUS I KNOW ITS HARD.SO,TRY TO KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AS MUCH AS YOU CAN,AND DONT GIVE UP.LIKE SOMEBODY TOLD ME,IM TELLING YOU,YOUR NOT ALONE K,... IT MITE FEEL LONELY SOMETIMES,BUT YOUR NOT ALONE... WE ARE ALL HERE TO HELP EACHOTHER...

YOUR FRIEND,

ANGEL