alone..trying not to hold bitterness towards people

I have no family.. father re married years ago and put me and mybrother in Childerns aid.

step mother has made my life hard. for me and now disowning me and my kids.

I having troubles with friends. I needed a place to stay until I found another job. and everyone shut there doors. I have always had my own home. this is sooo hurtfull. some days I cant breath.. the pain, I have now disowned my all my friends I have had for years. ( thought how was myfriend) .. I am living with an ex boy friend took me in, I am working and trying to save money. to move on myown again. My daughters have been nothing but little bitcha to me... one was very sneaky and moved out last summer when I lost my job. she moved in with her dad and his girl friend..with the hot tub and big $500,000.dallor home... I have another daugher. 21 she has been living with her dad as well. and I found out she was couching the smaller one to move... I gaveevething to mykids,.. toshit all over me. I dont drink, or take drugs. i am clean person... problem is they see I have no family suport and shiton  me. no one telling them DONT SHIT ON YOUR MOM.... not a sole,

so here i am,..hard,bitter,wanting to end my life... no one likes me. for me.. i was very good to people... I gave my freinds anything i HAD,. I worked with food companys as a rep, and I alway had extra product in my home and car.. I gave  to fill there cupbards... when i look back the last few months on how door shutin my face... I had no place to go, claimed bankrupt and put all my things into a storage place... shit