I have no family.. father re married years ago and put me and mybrother in Childerns aid.
step mother has made my life hard. for me and now disowning me and my kids.
I having troubles with friends. I needed a place to stay until I found another job. and everyone shut there doors. I have always had my own home. this is sooo hurtfull. some days I cant breath.. the pain, I have now disowned my all my friends I have had for years. ( thought how was myfriend) .. I am living with an ex boy friend took me in, I am working and trying to save money. to move on myown again. My daughters have been nothing but little bitcha to me... one was very sneaky and moved out last summer when I lost my job. she moved in with her dad and his girl friend..with the hot tub and big $500,000.dallor home... I have another daugher. 21 she has been living with her dad as well. and I found out she was couching the smaller one to move... I gaveevething to mykids,.. toshit all over me. I dont drink, or take drugs. i am clean person... problem is they see I have no family suport and shiton me. no one telling them DONT SHIT ON YOUR MOM.... not a sole,
so here i am,..hard,bitter,wanting to end my life... no one likes me. for me.. i was very good to people... I gave my freinds anything i HAD,. I worked with food companys as a rep, and I alway had extra product in my home and car.. I gave to fill there cupbards... when i look back the last few months on how door shutin my face... I had no place to go, claimed bankrupt and put all my things into a storage place... shit
Hi Sam,
I read your profile and related to feeling alone! In my opinion, loneliness is crippling and very difficult to fight. I lost both my parents in my early twenties, then the devasting blow of losing a twin really finished me off. I am bipolar and like u, allienated all of my friends. I hear anger in yr comments and that too, is something I have to constantly work on. I never had a home but always had a good job, with company car, expenses, etc. until the last two jobs I cudn't cope with and now I live on social welfare. Just typing those words anger me.
Sam, I think that your daughters' going to live with their dad is a blessing in disguise. It will give u the attention u need to take care of u! My eldest son called me crazy, nutso and many other degrating words as he cudnt copy with my illness. So last year he moved out on his own and I live with my youngest who understands my condition and lets me be when im not well.
My only advice to you is to let go of the anger (and u have many reasons to be angry) because it is holding YOU down. I know this as when my dad died I hadn't said one word to him in 4 years! I told myself it was better that he died as he abused us for many years and I was an ANGRY woman who blamed my shitty life on anyone. This blocked me from working on myself and I've only started to get out of the house and on some days, get out of bed!
Please dont give up - you now have the opportunity to work on just YOU! Take advantage of it, treat yourself well and most of all try to LAUGH a little!!!