the death of a friend

so ive been struggling with depression for a long time now...i recently realized i have sufferd from it all my life,,,now it's getting so bad.....a very close freind of mine just died ,she was under the influence and she drove off the road,.im best buds with her boyfreind,,poor guy he lost his mother last year on thanxgiving night,she had a heart attack,a week later his grandma passed away,,,now his girlfiend is dead...i feel so bad for the guy,,,were all hurting soo much ..this pain is overwelming...i never thought things could ever be so bad..this has been the hardest year of my life..im just so depressed,it's so lonely in my world...