crying and don't know why feel like i'm very raw

I know exactly how you feel, i suffer from these too, i don't have any advice to give as im not an expert, but i just wanted to let you kow that you will be in my prayers and hope things get better for ya.

Psychiatry isn't an exact science, and it might take your doctor some trial and error to find the right antidepressant for you.  I can look backwards to 2008 and the first part of 2009 as as a simply horrendous periond in my life.  I was even given ECT's in an effort  to bring me out of this black hole. 

I'm on a combo of medicines for anxiety and depression.  They are, Ativan, Effexor, Lamictal, Zyprexa  and Mertazapine.  I hate being on so many pills but it seems like the only way I can get relief.  Due to these drugs taken together I could stop crying and finally smile.  I'm off my sofa where I was curled up with a blanket, eyes tightly shut.  I dressed up and went with my friends for a British tea. last week.

When I was depressed and crying all the time noone could convince me that IT would ever end.

Your doc should be able to do the same.  Oh!  I went off of Paxil with no problem some years ago.  But, I was given Lexapro right away to take it's place.

I've been working with my therapist to find the causes of my anxiety.  They all point to various childhood traumas.  I keep saying to myself, "you're safe now,"  I also journal, and a lot comes out that deals with my anger. 

Right now I'm focusing on my anger towards the three hospitalizations I had in 2008,  I hate them all and the people who work in them.  They treated me like a criminal one minute and a smalll child the next. Writing letter I don't send to them helps a lot.

I'm sure that you will pull yourself out the hole if you get the right meds.   My husband said that to me at one point, but in my depression, I didn't believe him   Babou