I guess I've been losing it these days. I've been obsessed with my looks now...using hair masks, all that stuff, getting my hair dyed, using face masks, trying new moisturizing treatments...I never felt really that self concious until my friend said, "Stop obsessing with your looks! Let it go!" when I started to rant to her about eyebrows because my brother had shaved them while I was sleeping. (Stupid prankster.) I can already feel that sadness coming on...emptiness inside...not wanting to do anything..I don't know. I'm really tired of feeling this way. How can I make this stupid feeling stop before it gets worse? Arrgh! (Gosh I say "Arrgh" alot!)
I should be diagnosed by now but my psychologist has barely done anything about it. I don't feel like I really have an identity anymore. I wish that there was something that I could do to stop myself. I know there are still razors sitting in the bathroom...the urge to cut myself is kind of appealing...don't know what my folks would do if they found out, tho. I wish that I could go to a hospital.
Now I have two questions for all you people out there-
is there any antidepressants for children that have very few side effects? (Probably no, whatever, I'll still ask)
Oh, crap. I forgot my second question. I'll post it as a comment if I finally remember what it is. How could I forget? arrgh
chow-
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