Information and opinions on Depression from Allyce at MyDepressionConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/94177/sensitivity Mon, 09 Nov 2009 18:18:14 -0500 Allyce Hello everyone!  Despite my happy tone, I have had an awful day.  I was at a club after school and I was bouncing off the walls, real hyper, real happy.  Saying random things that my friends laugh at.  The teacher was giving us math problems and as he wrote one on the board, I started to discuss with my group how to begin on it.  This kind of strange kid, mood-swingy, often rude, says, "Well, now you're... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/94177/sensitivity http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/90628/antidepressant Tue, 13 Oct 2009 19:17:06 -0400 Allyce OMIGAWD! c: I was just reading Reader's Digest (I really need a life) and I came across the health section- which I usually ignore, but in a little inset paragraph read something about how fish oil supplements can work as an antidepressant!   They conducted a test where three times a day a group of depressed women took fish oil supplements and over a course of six months, 87% felt better!  (Don't blame me if I got the numbers... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/90628/antidepressant http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/90607/survey-random Tue, 13 Oct 2009 16:17:53 -0400 Allyce I posted a SharePost yesterday and another one today.  I hope that's not illegal.  () How is everyone?  It doesn't feel right to complain about my own troubles when there are people that are worse off than me, so I'm not going to today.  I would much rather know ten things about you- no matter who you are, where you come from, stuff like that.  I don't really care about that stuff.  I would rather know weird,... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/90607/survey-random http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/90487/feel Mon, 12 Oct 2009 20:39:44 -0400 Allyce I'm so sick of it.  I don't know what I'm supposed to think anymore.  Everything I say is wrong- everything I say is judgemental, rude, insensitive.  But they're what I feel.  When I say I wish my brother would stop bugging me, he says it's my fault because I never stop bugging him and that I shouldn't stop blaming things on him.  When I say I want to cut myself, my brother tells me that my feelings aren't real, that I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/90487/feel http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/86954/inevitable Tue, 15 Sep 2009 20:25:50 -0400 Allyce I was reading a "Get Well" card at Walmart.  It said, "Pain is inevitable.  Suffering is optional."  I thought that was really inspirational and a great string of words but the thing is- it made me feel guilty.  It made me question if I could just fling my depression off of me and go flying weightless off into the sunset.  Take the pain away.  I wondered if I really did have the strength.  Can you really feel... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/86954/inevitable http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/86514/hell-glory Sat, 12 Sep 2009 16:25:25 -0400 Allyce It's kind of been a while since I posted on here.  Does anyone remember me?  (Naw, I didn't think so.  LOL.)  Last time I posted I still had a little hope.  Now I have none.  I got up every day hoping that I'd be better.  Things have only gotten worse.  I have literally NO confidence and no personality at all.  I used to want to see doctors.  Now all I want is pity.  No one seems to... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/86514/hell-glory http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/84654/life Fri, 28 Aug 2009 13:54:22 -0400 Allyce No one understands me.  They barely even understand I'm depressed, much less why.  My parents assume that when I'm not crying and cutting myself that I'm ok, that it's like the flu.  One visit to the psychologist and I'm all better.  But there's an anger in me, a feeling of isolation and helplessness that will devour me when it gets the chance.  And when it did, just this week, I cut myself with really sharp... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/84654/life http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/84118/gawd Mon, 24 Aug 2009 16:05:05 -0400 Allyce I guess I've been losing it these days.  I've been obsessed with my looks now...using hair masks, all that stuff, getting my hair dyed, using face masks, trying new moisturizing treatments...I never felt really that self concious until my friend said, "Stop obsessing with your looks!  Let it go!" when I started to rant to her about eyebrows because my brother had shaved them while I was sleeping.  (Stupid prankster.)  I can... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/84118/gawd http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/81853/power-words Sat, 08 Aug 2009 07:03:00 -0400 Allyce My psychologist told me something that suddenly came back to me now.  I think it came back at a good time.  "If all you say is negative," he said, "then you willl surely be a pessimist person.  If you can always find a bad word to let out, you will be a negative influence and others around you will repel from you.  But if you have a good thing to say, always finding a good thing to say, naturally, your thoughts will... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/81853/power-words http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/81819/make-smile Fri, 07 Aug 2009 21:21:00 -0400 Allyce I've found a lot of inspiration and care on this site...thank you all, because now I feel a lot better, knowing I can have this kind of online diary (blog?) here and know someone's listening to me rant about stupid things.  lol.  I keep on asking myself, "How did I get here?"  and then a voice inside of my head replies, "Well, first, your mom bought the tickets to Shanghai..." There's even sarcasm inside of my head! ... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/413565/81819/make-smile