Is there a cure for this kind of grief? My wife passed away 13 years ago and I still can't make it through the week without a breakdown. Seems like everything I see and hear reminds me of her and I can't get through the pain. 13 years of depression is getting too much.
I am very sorry to learn of your situation. As you say 13 years is a very long time to be experiencing such a level of grief.
Given your circumstances I think you should seek professional help. Speak to your family doctor in the first instance about getting appropriate counseling or psychological support. I know you can contact these places directly but your doctor may have insights into the better places, or most appropriate people for your needs
Just read about your website in this mornings paper so thought I would drop in. Your article on grief had me thinking about the "five stages of grief"; denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. At this later stage of my life, bargaining and acceptance do not really enter the equation, as the other three dominate, and unfortunately they just go on an on in a "vicious cycle, especially the depression. It seems like each new loss, crisis, or something happening that you could easily handle way back when, easily keeps the cyle going. Being in the Vet Admin system since the 70's and all the different medications I've tried and the psycho-therapy has convinced me long ago that I really can't be helped, so I have learned to just deal with it, (as too many of my once close relatives have told me time after time). Well, I didn't have any questions, but guess it just felt good to say something. Therefore, this site, at least for today, has been a good thing. RRZ in OR