I don't necissarily mean a food diet in itself, but what I'm trying to bring up is the fact that I haven't been visiting this place on a regular basis. And, like a food diet where it must be maintained on a regular basis in order for results to show, I unfortunately haven't used this site as often as I wish. With no healthy association around me and the only support group in my area being infested with homeless who are only there for the free food, I resort to this site as a place to treat like a support group.

My problem is, when I feel depressed/anxiety, my strength diminishes almost completely. It leaves me feeling weak, exhsausted, drowsy, and unmotivated. Which brings me to my point; when I feel this way, the computer feels like a million miles away. I'm in bed wanting to just sleep, with guilt continuingly tapping my shoulder because I come off as lazy, which I don't want to be. As the days go by, the pressure and 'things to do' simply piles up higher and higher, making the climb all the more difficult.

Just now I decided to come on. First thing was to work on my pictures such as sorting/moving, etc. And the damn program crashed. This lead me to wanting to give up and smash my head in the monitor; but I've done that once...and it hurts....and costs money.

Anyways, I just wanted to type this up in order to get back on my feet here, even though this isn't a physical eye-to-eye support group where we can grab a coffee and talk, it's still better than nothing. If it weren't for this site i'd most likely be in my room at this moment, with absolutely nowhere to go besides calling the hospital and begging to go back...yet I can't even do that since it's ridiculously expensive(and that's how they bite you in the ass. They give you comfort only to ask for it back once you're out).