I'm new at this.

I am severely depressed, I think, maybe bipolar.  Sometimes I think I'm schizophrenic.  All I know is that I get extremely happy and euphoric, followed by feelings of worthlessness.  I love my boyfriend but sometimes I hate him.  Same with my family and some of my friends.  I'm capable of loving or loathing most things.  I'm still in touch with reality, but there are times when I feel like I'm slipping.  I'd like to thing that suicide isn't going to be what ends my life, but the further I get into these negative episodes the more I think it wouldn't be too bad if I died.  Not for the attention, but for the sake of making life easier on everyone else.  Without me, (sometimes I feel this way) the people around me would have no burdens and society in general will benefit from it.  My death wouldn't have to be a tragedy, just the only gift I have to give the world.