Information and opinions on Depression from SadGirl at MyDepressionConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/89590/something-that Tue, 06 Oct 2009 01:12:42 -0400 SadGirl My therapist recommended I go to this website and take an assessment to help me see the good things about me, instead of focusing on the bad.  It's called positive psychology.  The assessment he recommended points out your top 5 strengths of a list of 24, including things like kindness, honesty, wisdom, leadership, etc.  I was not surprised by my results, because I think I know myself to some degree, but it helped me to... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/89590/something-that http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/89588/frustrating Tue, 06 Oct 2009 01:01:11 -0400 SadGirl So, my situation has not exactly improved, but I suppose it has become more manageable. The man at the root of my troubles has made a decision, and it does not include life with me... This makes me incredibly sad.  Last Tuesday we talked, and he told me that he has to do this.  He told me he couldn't tell me how he felt about me, because why make our situation worse? He said he would stop coming to me for sex, that he wouldn't use me... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/89588/frustrating http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/88010/inspiration Wed, 23 Sep 2009 21:27:28 -0400 SadGirl I hate spiders.  They're creepy.  I live in West Texas, so sometimes they're even dangerous.  But last night, I got a little inspiration from one. I was at work and decided to go take a smoke break.  I got out to the smoke pit, which is a pavillion out in a field, so it's dim, and there are usually spiders in there at night.  There was a really big one out there last night!  I had seen it out there the... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/88010/inspiration http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/87869/suicidal Tue, 22 Sep 2009 21:41:17 -0400 SadGirl I'm not suicidal.  At least, I don't think I am.  In my last post, I made that same comment, but the thing is, I think about it all the time.  I don't really want to die, but I really want the pain to stop.  I want the uncertainty to go away... I think I just want to feel in control of SOMETHING in my life.   The day that my boyfriend and I broke up, I actually contemplated suicide.  I went out to a lake that... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/87869/suicidal http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/87727/ve Mon, 21 Sep 2009 23:13:34 -0400 SadGirl I am 29 years old, active duty Air Force.  10 years ago, at my first duty station, I met the man that up until three weeks ago, I thought I was going to marry.  Let me clarify; we have not been dating for 10 years.  We actually did date back then, but we were just young kids, both a little silly, as most 19 year olds are.  We ended up being very close friends instead, which is how we've passed most of the last 10 years. ... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/455763/87727/ve