HELLO EVERYONE, I HAVE NOT UPDATED IN A LONG TIME. MY HUSBAND HAD 2 HEART ATTACKS IN JULY, HE HAD ANGIOPLASTY DONE BUT HE STILL HAS SERIOUS PROBLEMS. HE IS ANEMIC, HAS KIDNEY FAILURE, CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE. AND I AM AT THE LOWEST PLACE IN DEPRESSION , I DONT REMEMBER EVER BEING LIKE THIS. I FEEL GUILTY, ALMOST LIKE I GAVE HIM ALL HIS HEALTH PROBLEMS.I JUST WANT TO LAY DOWN AND DIE..ALL MY LIFE I HAVE FELT GUILTY EVEN WHEN I DID,NT DO ANYTHING WRONG..I CAN BARELY FUNCTION RIGHT NOW. I NEED HELP, I AM TAKING ZOLOFT 100MGS. AND IT MAKES ME FEEL TIRED. IN MY OTHER SHAREPOSTS I HAVE SAID HE WAS THE CAUSE OF MY DEPRESSION...AT TIMES THAT WAS TRUE. HE HAD A TERRIBLE TEMPER, HE HAS NOW CHANGED INTO A PERSON THAT I LOVE AND FEEL SORRY FOR HIM. HE CANT FIND A JOB AND HE HAS NEVER LIKED TO STAY HOME.HE HAS NO HOBBYS SO I FEEL IF HE CANT WORK HE WILL JUST GIVE UP AND DIE. I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE I CANT THINK STRAIGHT. THE LESSON I HAVE LEARND THE HARD WAY IS DONT TAKE YOUR LOVED ONES FOR GRANTED..TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM,AND WRAP YOUR ARMS AROUND THEM,..AS FOR ME I STILL HAVE ALL THE SAME HEALTH PROBLEMS MY VISION IS VERY BAD..I,M JUST TRYING TO HANG ON UNTILL I TURN 65 NEXT MARCH AND CAN GET SOME INSURANCE ...MY WEBTV IS GONG TO FREEZE UP SO I WILL GO FOR NOW...GOD BLESS YOU ALL...JENNIFER TURNER



Hey Jennifer...
You have been through some serious stuff here! I am so sorry about all that you and your husband are going through. Anybody would experience sadness in this situation. I know you know this logically but your husband's health problems are not your fault. I think sometimes we feel guilty for such things so that we can feel some control. And too...it is a sign that you care so much. Your message is such a good one...to reach out and appreciate our loved ones. Who knows what will happen tomorrow. I am so glad that you wrote this. You will be in my thoughts today.
HI, I JUST READ THIS AND YOU HAVE MADE ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER. MY HUSBAND IS BETTER, HE JUST WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER IF HE HAD A JOB. HE IS 75YR. OLD, AND NOW HE IS SAYING, WELL, I GUESS I,M OLD AND NO ONE WANTS TO HIRE ME. HE LOVES BEING OUT AND AROUND AMONG PEOPLE. HE WOULD BE GREAT AS A GREATER AT WAL-MART, SOMETHING LIKE THAT. HE HAS WORKED ALL HIS LIFE AND I FEEL SO SORRY FOR HIM WHEN HE COMES HOME AFTER GOING AND CHECKING ON APPLICATIONS, AND, NO JOB. OK I KNOW 75 SEEMS OLD, BUT, HE LOOKS AND ACTS AT LEAST 10 YRS. YOUNGER. WE DONT NEED THE MONEY, HE IS ON S.S. AND HAS A VERY GOOD PENSION, IT,S JUST HEART BRAKING FOR ME TO THINK HE FEELS LIKE NO ONE WANTS HIM BECAUSE OF HIS AGE. THANK YOU SO MUCH...MY DAY IS BETTER BECAUSE OF YOUR REPLY. GOD BLESS YOU....JENNIFER