LIFE LESSONS

HELLO EVERYONE, I HAVE NOT UPDATED IN A LONG TIME. MY HUSBAND HAD 2 HEART ATTACKS IN JULY, HE HAD ANGIOPLASTY DONE BUT HE STILL HAS SERIOUS PROBLEMS. HE IS ANEMIC, HAS KIDNEY FAILURE, CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE. AND I AM AT THE LOWEST PLACE IN DEPRESSION  , I DONT REMEMBER EVER BEING LIKE THIS. I FEEL GUILTY, ALMOST LIKE I GAVE HIM ALL HIS HEALTH PROBLEMS.I JUST WANT TO LAY DOWN AND DIE..ALL MY LIFE I HAVE FELT GUILTY EVEN WHEN I DID,NT DO ANYTHING WRONG..I CAN BARELY FUNCTION RIGHT NOW. I NEED HELP, I AM TAKING ZOLOFT 100MGS. AND IT MAKES ME FEEL TIRED. IN MY OTHER SHAREPOSTS I HAVE SAID HE WAS THE CAUSE OF MY DEPRESSION...AT TIMES THAT WAS TRUE. HE HAD A TERRIBLE TEMPER, HE HAS NOW CHANGED INTO A PERSON THAT I LOVE AND FEEL SORRY FOR HIM. HE CANT FIND A JOB AND HE HAS NEVER LIKED TO STAY HOME.HE HAS NO HOBBYS SO I FEEL IF HE CANT WORK HE WILL JUST GIVE UP AND DIE. I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE I CANT THINK STRAIGHT. THE LESSON I HAVE LEARND THE HARD WAY IS DONT TAKE YOUR LOVED ONES FOR GRANTED..TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM,AND WRAP YOUR ARMS AROUND THEM,..AS FOR ME I STILL HAVE ALL THE SAME HEALTH PROBLEMS MY VISION IS VERY BAD..I,M JUST TRYING TO HANG ON UNTILL I TURN 65 NEXT MARCH AND CAN GET SOME INSURANCE ...MY WEBTV IS GONG TO FREEZE UP SO I WILL GO FOR NOW...GOD BLESS YOU ALL...JENNIFER TURNER