HAVING A HARD TIME

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Thursday, November 06, 2008
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HI EVERYONE, I HOPE YOU ALL ARE DOING BETTER. AS FOR ME, I HAVE BEEN DEEPLY DEPRESSED FOR WEEKS. I AM TAKING MY MEDS. BUT ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS HOW MUCH I WANT TO LEAVE THIS WORLD AND GO TO HEAVEN..NO..I WONT TAKE MY LIFE...I JUST WANT GOD TO END THIS TIME I AM HERE....I TRY TO TELL MY HUSBAND BUT...

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Snookaroo87
Friday, November 07, 2008 at 10:58 AM

Girl, don't ever fel bad for posting your feelings. That's what this website is for!

I am also suffering depression and I know how you feel.

I am also a Christian, and I know Jesus as my personal savior, so I feel I can relate to you as far as that goes. I often think about how amazing heaven is going to be. And it makes me want to go there RIGHT NOW!! :) But then I think about why God put me on this earth. Its to praise Him. So, I then think that I need to live my life to the fullest and have fun and praise Him all the while. And that's what keeps me going.

Another thing is prayer. I know it sounds all too familiar, but prayer is sooo powerful. I have seen what prayer can do, and it's amazing. I went through a rebellious time, where I didn't want anything to do with church or Christian music or prayer. It's not that I wasn't a Christian. I believe I still was, but I had just gone off the beaten path for a while. Now, I am getting back to the heart of worship. And I believe that only then will we recieve inner peace from Him.

Call on Him. He does not want His children to be unhappy. He wants to just love on us and make us feel better. He is our father. In fact, I call Him Daddy when I talk to Him.

Anyway, I hope this helps you. If you need to talk, send me a message. I'm here.

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JENNIFER TURNER
Friday, November 07, 2008 at 12:33 PM

HELLO, IT,S A PLEASURE TO HEAR FROM YOU AS WE SEEM TO HAVE SOMETHING IN COMMON....BEING CHRISTIANS...I PRAY SO MUCH AND AT TIMES I JUST TALK TO GOD...WHEN I CANT FOCUS ON PRAYING LIKE I USUALLY DO..I JUST SAY THE OLD TIME KIDS PRAYER...NOW I LAY ME DOWN TO SLEEP, I GUESS YOU KNOW THE REST..I KNOW THAT GOD LOVES ME AND WANTS ME TO BE HAPPY, HOWEVER, I ALSO THINK THAT OUR BODYS CAN GO HAYWIRE, LIKE A CHEMICAL INBALANCE IN THE BRAIN WHICH I THINK CAN CAUSE A WHOLE HOST OF PROBLEMS, INCLUDING DEPRESSION..I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE WILL NOT AGREE WITH ME, AND I,M NO DR. BUT THATS WHAT I THINK. GOD HAS SAVED MY LIFE SO MANY TIMES BECAUSE IT WAS,NT MY TIME TO DIE. I FELL AND BROKE MY NECK IN 1993, I SHOULD HAVE BEEN LEFT PARALIZED FROM THE SHOULDERS ALL THE WAY DOWN. WELL, 3 MONTHS AFTER A VERY GOOD DR. PUT MY NECK BACK TOGETHER, I WENT BACK TO MY JOB AS A CASHIER IN A STORE. 1 YEAR LATER I HAD OPTIC NUERITIS INMY RIGHT EYE THAT DAMAGED THE VISION IN IT THAT I HAD TO QUIT MY JOB. AFTER A FEW MONTHS MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER TOLD ME SHE WAS PREGNANT. SHE AND HER HUSBAND HAD BEEN MARRIED FOR 3 YEARS. I WAS SO EXCITED AND AFTER SHE HAD HER BABY..A GIRL THAT LOOKED JUST LIKE ME..I WAS ABLE TO BABYSIT Kari, AND I KNEW GOD HAD PLANS FOR ME. THERE ARE SO MANY OTHER THINGS I COULD SAY ABOUT GODS LOVE FOR US BUT I WILL STOP FOR NOW..BY THE WAY , I CALL HIM MY HEAVENLY FATHER.....I READ ON ANOTHER PERSONS SITE THAT IF YOU DRINK A LOT OF WATER IT CAN FLUSH YOUR MEDS. OUT OF YOUR SYSTOM...I DRINK GALLONS OF WATER, AND I THINK THAT MAY HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH MY ZOLOFT NOT WORKING. I DONT KNOW WHERE I READ THAT THIS MORNING, ANYWAY I WILL ASK MY DR. ABOUT IT. THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR REPLY...YOUR WORDS HAVE HELPED ME...GOD BLESS YOU.....JENNIFER

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Snookaroo87
Friday, November 07, 2008 at 05:02 PM

I agree. It is ver nice to communicate with someone who is also a Christian on here.

I am sorry to hear about your many ailments over the years. That must have been so hard to deal with. But, yes, I agree that God has a plan for you. He has brought you this far and will continue to help you through. And I am pleased to hear that you have a grandbaby. That's amazing, and I'm sure that god will give you many fun adventures together. I will pray for you and remember, if you need to talk again, I am here.

Don't leave!
Merely Me
Monday, November 10, 2008 at 09:28 PM

Please do not leave this world. You know that is not the answer. You need to hang in there. Your life has meaning and purpose.

I am so sorry you are experiencing this emotional and physical pain. I hope it passes for you and you see better days.

I am glad you are writing here and reaching out. Lots of good people here.

Thank you for sharing your experience here.

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JENNIFER TURNER
Wednesday, November 12, 2008 at 04:42 PM

HI, I AM STILL SO DEPRESSED, I JUST CANT SEEM TO SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THIS TUNNEL. I CANT GET OVER THIS BOUT WITH MY DEPRESSION, LIKE I HAVE IN THE PAST. I REALLY FEEL WORTHLESS, HELPLESS, HOPELESS, AND ALL THE NEGATIVE THINGS THAT GO WITH THIS FEELING. I HAVE TRIED TO "MAKE MYSELF" FEEL BETTER BY TRYING TO KEEP TO A SCHEDULE, SORT OF...THAT HAS NOT WORKED. I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO...I,M SAD,MAD AT MYSELF FOR NOT BEING "NORMAL" LIKE OTHER PEOPLE...I KNOW, I WILL GET OVER THIS, AND I DONT PLAN ON LEAVING THIS WORLD UNTILL IT,S MY TIME...I WANT TO THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR CONCERN AND REPLYS MEAN SO MUCH TO ME..TO MERELY ME...KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. YOU HAVE A VERY SWEET AND HELPFUL WAY ABOUT YOU...THANKS EVERYONE...I WILL UPDATE SOON...MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL....JENNIFER

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Anonymous
Monday, December 22, 2008 at 07:59 AM

I have recently had the same issues with getting sick after I eat. I also was keeping a journal of my eating habits. It ended up being a diseased Gallbladder. No stones found. But when they went in (laproscopy) they found no stones but a diseased gallbladder that was making me sick everytime I ate. It felt like I had food poisoning everytime I eat.

Hang in there:

Jerimah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you".