AUGUST 31,2007 TO YOUR QUESTION OF "PROZAC?" YES, I TAKE IT EVER SO OFTEN!! REASON I DO NOT NOW, IS BECAUSE IT MAKES ME SO "HYPER!" WITH 'SEROQUEL', "I LOST MY VOICE!" IT 'HELPED', KEPT ME CALM; WHEN UPSET;"I BECOME VERY WITHDRAWN; FOR TO ME :"EVERYTHING IS "MY FAULT" IN 1998, WENT THROUGH A DIVORCE AND THE DEATH OF MY MOTHER ALL WITHIN "SIX MONTHS" OF EACH OTHER!! MY NAME WAS "FORGED FROM EVERYTHING", AND I CAME OUT WITH "ZERO".WORKED LONG HARD YEARS='0'. NOW, MY FAMILY ;"which is one sister and my son have turned their back on me ,because I stood up for myself and they in return,said ,"I HURT THEM "DEEPLY", so I live alone,stay at home, and "TRY TO SLEEP AS MUCH AS I CAN::"SO I DO NOT HAVE TO THINK!!" Why is it that those who do not have "EMOTIONALLY ILLNESS"{i prefer that "word"} HAVE A "FEELING OF EMBRASSMENT OR ASHAMED?? DO NOT WANT FRIENDS OR OTHERS TO KNOW??? IN THIS COUNTRY, WE ARE TREATED LIKE THEY DID THEM BACK IN THE 1800'S AND NOW THERE IS A "STIGMA" AGAINST "EMOTIONAL ILLNESS!" DOCTORS DON'T LISTEN TO YOU ,,"JUST WRITE OUT A LOT OF MEDICATIONS TO KEEP YOU IN A "STUPOR", EATING TO WHERE WEIGHT IS UNBELIEVIABLE!!! OBESTY IN U.S.A. WILL BE "FOUND"IN PEOPLE BEING TREATED FOR THE ILLNESS!! SEEN TOO MUCH OF IT !! JUST SIT WHERE I HAVE TO GO AND YOU WILL SEE!! I WILL NOT TAKE THEM!! I HAVE HAD PASS/SURG.; H/P AND HIGH CHOLESTEROL;STOMACH AND BOWEL, SO I EAT AS "LITTLE AS I CAN!!" WHEN YOUR "FAMILY TURNS AWAY FROM YOU AND YOU WERE "A VERY CLOSE AND JOYFUL,LOVE FILLED FAMILY;;;"THEN MAMA DIES;" EVERYTHING CHANGES!! I LOVE MY FAMILY WITH ALL OF HEART AND BEING,,BUT THEY WILL NOT EVEN TALK TO ME ON THEIR PHONE. FOR YEARS ,,"I HAVE TO TALK TO THE ANSWERING MAIL ON "CELL PHONES" AND NEVER "E-MAIL ME AND I SEND MY "LOVE" EVERY DAY TO THEM THAT WAY AND IT WON'T CHANGE! I AM 65 YRS OLD. AND NOW I AM VERY "TIRED" OF TRYING TO "WIN" THEIR "LOVE BACK FOR ME!! ALWAYS ,I WAS THE GIVER;"DOER"=CO-DEPENDANT;HAD TO "PLEASE EVERYONE!" WAS IN CHURCH FOR MANY YEARS AND MANY,MANY FRIENDS! AFTER HUSBAND DID WHAT "HE DID"; I LOST HOME,FRIENDS, SON,SISTER ,BROTHER-IN LAW AND MY NIECE AND MY SON'S LADY-FRIEND; WHO I LOVE DEEPLY! MY ILLNESS OF "PERFECTION" STARTED WHEN I WAS ONE AND A HALF YRS OLD!!MY MAMA AND ME !!! ONLY THREE OTHERS KNEW!!! IN MY "DAY" YOU KEPT YOUR PRBLEMS{abuse} TO YOURSELF!! SHE AND I CARRY THAT TIL THE "3 WKS." BEFORE SHE DIED,, AND I MADE HER TELL MY SISTER AND BROTHER INLAW...PLEASE DO NOT PUT MY E-MAIL ADDRESS ON COMMENTS /OR REPLYS TO OTHER FRIENDS I HAVE 'POSTED' THANK YOU!
TIRED AND TEARFUL
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