It's hard when things are hard; thoughts of trying to be happy, just seem so far out of reach...take comfort in knowing that you have people that do care, just want to listen, & that it's a GREAT step in a better direction, that you are able to express how you're feeling.  I live with a disease that keeps me in pain, discomfort, feeling sad, & most of all, hurts...it's hard for me to try to keep "happy thoughts" in my head, but I DO believe that God has a plan for me.  Maybe it's time that I kick myself & get going, instead of feeling sorry for myself...I've lost so many things that I enjoy doing; but am greatful that I'm still here, alive, & breathing! :)   Some times, we just have to stop & learn to accept some things we're uable to change, but change what we can, have the best outlook on things, & KEEP MOVING FORWARD! :) 

I have no friends to speak of, so I get NO support from outside my "little world" that I live in...I do, however, believe that God is ALWAYS with me.  Heck, I went from being do sick, the doctors' believed I was going to die, to being able to walk, eat again, & enjoy whatever life that God has planned for me.  Everything CAN be achieved...mind over matter.  Yes, I know it "sounds easy," but believe me dear, it's hard.  Every day I wake up, it's a struggle & I NEVER know if MY body will do what MY mind keeps telling it to. 

The reason I'm explaining this to you, is there's always somebody in this world that has it worse than we think we do...gives me the strengh to carry on & keep moving forward...even if my own body doesn't feel like it.  I HAVE to believe that I'm like this for a reason; whatever that reason may be is Not for me to question, but again to see how strong I truly am.  I WILL get through this...  I tell myself that every day, even if I don't truly feel like it...it's amazing how much it makes you stop, review, & be greatful for what you have, every day of your life...which to me, is LIFE itself dear. :)