Help. I know I need it and don't know how to get it. I am trying and trying and have almost died so many times trying this hard. I think I am going to pack it in and give my possessions away. It's time to say goodbye to this cruel, unforgiving world. So many things bad that happen here and I know there are some positives but for some reason I just focus on the bad. I can't get these thoughts nagging at me out of my head. I am always trying to think of a definate way to end my life, one that won't fail or won't hurt anyone else. I am tired of being tired and in physical and mental anguish everyday and feel so ugly inside. I wanted it to get better but now I just feel like it won't get any better.