im 18 and im suffering from depression. im on meds, but i dont know if they are helping. the dr raised my doses and i think it might be to much. im not exactly sure with that. im confused with my meds.
alot of things happened to me has a child that i am remembering now, due to things that have gone on. my ex boyfriend(just recently broke up) has a really bad anger issue and there are point in times where he would take it out on me. and that brought up a whole lot of things from my past. i recently had a miscarriage, and its tough.
im trying to figure out ways to cope, and not make it to where im letting the depression take full control of my life, i want to be happy again. im starting to lose everything that i had because i didnt realise how worthy i was. i need to know how to make myself understand that i am worthy and that i am a good person, so that i can be happy again. i want my life back..
Hi Sweet Apples
I do like that name!
I am so glad you have elaborated here from your question. You have a lot on your plate! And you are so young too.
So here are some of the issues you have outlined:
1. You have some unresolved issues from childhood...some bad memories?
2. Your boyfriend has an anger issue and I am wondering...how does he take this anger out on you? Is he getting physical?
3. You are confused by your meds and they are not working well for you.
4. You just had a miscarriage.
This is a lot for anyone to deal with. I want to tell you right now that you are good...you are worthy and you do matter.
I can tell you that I experienced having a miscarriage and it was absolutely devastating to me. Here is what I wrote about the experience, The Grief and Loss of Miscarriage. It is so difficult because...your body is reacting with the loss or hormones and it can cause your mood to plummet. And then there is the horrible emotional loss. I totally understand why you are feeling so low right now. You need to grieve.
Okay...the angry boyfriend. Is this a toxic relationship? I have also written about this...when it is time to think about leaving. I will try to find that article for you.
Your meds...may we ask...what meds are you taking? If you have any confusion about them...it is a good thing to talk to you doctor and get some answers. You need medication which will help you.
Your past...there are so many people who can relate to this. It happens all the time that things in the present will trigger those bad memories. It is hard but you have to try to stay in the present and deal with what is right in front of you.
Please do have hope. I know it is hard to imagine right now but it is possible to feel better again. I am so glad you are reaching out.
Keep writing...we are listening.