wantadoover

Hi there

It sounds like you really know yourself well and that you have made good solid efforts to help yourself.  I hope that you do feel proud of your hard work.

I am wondering...do you think you suffer more from depression or anxiety?  I am not a therapist but your symptoms sound more anxiety related?  What does your therapist say? 

I could offer suggestions...patient to patient.  But before I do...can you tell us more?

1.  What seems to trigger your episodes?

2.  Do you have many environmental stressors?

3.  What is the worst part of this...the worst symptom?

4.  What has worked for you in the past?  What brings you out of such episodes?

I think what may be helpful is to write down all this stuff...write down all the treatments and meds...write down what symptoms you have...and when...write it all down.  Try to look for patterns. 

Let us know what you come up with.  I know how terribly frustrating and difficult it must be to continue to experience these bouts of depression and anxiety.  But do give yourself credit for having survived all this.

Thank you for sharing here.