Today I was watching George Carlin do stand-up comedy on tv with my friend, Val and he said in his routine that every 30 seconds somebody kills themselves. That made me feel really depressed. (Obviously) But it also got me thinking about the times I tried to commit suicide and just how close I came. At that time I was living with my parents so I guess, in a sense, I was lucky because they were there and they saved me from myself. But now if I were to do it I not only wouldn't have anyone stopping me but no one knowing why I did it. It was that realization that freaked me out. But the fact that I was thinking any of this made me realize that I was thinking about suicide. If I told my counselor this she would have to write it down in my chart and maybe even have me hospitalized, AGAIN. So to try to get my mind off of it I went downstairs to get online and look up the causes of high cholesterol and some how all the links lead me here. So here I am talking to you guys. But now that I have done that I really should be going and I wish everyone the best of luck.
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