"Beyond Help"

By Alice Sunday, April 13, 2008

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I saw my counselor on Thursday and we talked about the fact that I had been feeling suicidal this passed week. She told me I had been doing a good job using the suicide hotline but that I needed help beyond what they could offer. When I told her that I thought the suicidality increased when I was put on a stimulant for my ADHD she started typing numbers and she said,"OK, let's try this. If this doesn't work then you are beyond help." She created a schedule which I am expected to stick to. I left that session not feeling only angry but even more hopeless and helpless than I did going into it. I called her on Friday and told her I didn't appreciate what she said to me and she said that she didn't say that to me and she was sorry if I got that from what she said. I am so angry right now I could scream!

~Alice

Newly diagnosed

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JENNIFER TURNER

4/15/08 8:56am

HELLO ALICE. I HAVE HAD TIMES WHEN ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS SCREAM......SO I DID.....LOUD.....OF COURSE NO ONE WAS AROUND TO HEAR...EXCEPT MY 2 LITTLE DOGS AND 1 FAT CAT.....THE CAT MEOWED AND THE DOGS WHIMPERD AND THAT WAS IT....SO..IF YOU CAN..GO AHEAD AND SCREAM.....I AM NOT TAKING YOUR SITUATION LIGHTLY, ALICE...JUST WANT TO PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE....I,LL TALK TO YOU LATER....JENNIFER

dflat

4/15/08 10:24am

Alice, listen to me....just the fact that you heard that rediculous remark from that therapist says you are NOT beyond hope.....this is a guess(and ONLY a guess) from someone who has lived this hell for 44 years..... maybe the meds are wrong, maybe a new combination is needed..(hell, I've gone thru so many I can't recall them all)...what I know is that you need a new therapist.....and the knowledge that you are still fighting....so you are NOT beyond hope... oh, screaming is cool, too, I do it regularly......but in a car.......somethimg nice & private about a car....so, scream. & hang on...... Peace!

SuzieQ

5/ 1/08 10:33am

Hi, I was wondering what happened to you? I was new when I had read your post, and may have been one of the last posts written when the moderator posted the suicide hotline info. I am so glad to see you on here.

I have heard so much nonsense from so called 'professionals' in my life, that if I didn't allow my 'smart inner voice' to kick in, I swear I would be dead by now. You are not alone with having to deal with these unnecessary comments, treatments, stigmas and the like. I am very proud of you for calling the therapist and discussing your feelings. This is difficult to do! I have had to do this myself, and than felt guilty. I have since learned that my feelings are absolutely valid, and how I expect to be treated, which is how I treat others; WITH RESPECT! The whole reality for most of us suffering with mental issues is a lack of self esteem because of the very illnesses themselves. So, please professionals, listen and learn; we are human beings hey?

Okay, so how long have you been seeing this counselor/therapist? It sounds like this therapist is also your treating MD/Psychiatrist? I am interested to hear more from you.

Hang in here.

SuzieQ

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