Things are bad.

I don't know how many of you remember me or my story. But all you really need to know is that a while back things were better, I was feeling great. Well, as of recently things have gotten worse. My suicidal ideations are more intense than ever. So intense that I tried to kill myself in my counselor's waiting room. Luckily, she was there to stop me. It is not only the intensity that has increased but the frequency. I have those thoughts every single day! But I can't tell anyone (except my counselor). If I tell my parents they'll think I am being a selfish and a coward and I don't have any friends, at least that I can trust. I guess that is where you guys come in.