Wishing things were 'normal' again.. - Journal entry 3

Well, it was an other shity day at work. I got bitched at for using someone else's chair. I mean please, it is just a chair. Whatever!!!

Again today I am sooooo tired. I only worked 6 hrs again today. It is going to take FOREVER to get back to my 12 hr shifts. SGI is going to give up on me soon.

I don't want to be around people again today, I was soooo happy to get home from work, if I had to deal with one more patient today, I could have screamed. I love my job normally, but the past few months I just don't want to be there or any where for that matter.

Two of my kids are gone to work, so it's just the youngest one home. Thank God the kids are old enough where they don't need me ever second of the day. I just don't think that I would be able to deal with that again.

Why am I soooo tired? I usually have more energy than this. I hate this, I want it to go away. I am not having fun. It is sad when I can't even be up for more than 3 hrs without being totally exausted at the end.

One of the adverse affects of the Effexor is yanwing. How stupid is that. But that is exactly what I have been doing ALL day.

But I'm going to go have a nap, before I go to bed for the night. Now, that sounds so stupid.