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I grew up near Boston. My mother was a crystal meth addict when I was little. A habit she kicked after giving custody of my little sister & I to my father when I was 9, who later became an alcoholic. He, very shortly afterwards, married my stepmother. The defining moment of my childhood. She was ...

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hi ya...
Susan Cagley
Saturday, August 25, 2007 at 11:38 AM
I love God and the greatest gifts He has given me. My salvation, my 2 daughters Debra and Elizabeth, a roof over my head, and well my life. I lost a whole lot in the past few years. My husband of 23 years, my home that had been in my family for 4 gens. The worst thing of all was the respect of the neighbor hood that I grew up with. But I do know that I can't lose God or his love. I was abuse by my brothers and my sister. My mom and my dad worked to much so they didn't see what was happen to me. I wish that things could have been better for you. My ex thinks that just because he loves drunk who uses drugs, they my daughters should, it just doesn't work that way. Turning a blind eye want make bad things go away. It only makes it worst for those who are suffering. God bless you and your family. Every one here has had bad times so we do understand. Deborah Gery and Miss Tyler have share post about the affects of different meds. I hope you enjoy this site as much as I do. My name is Susan aka callmetroubles

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Dee
Sunday, August 26, 2007 at 04:32 AM

Thanks so much for responding Susan. This site seems to be so very supportive & open. I have never joined an online community before but after the death of my closest friend I somehow knew it was time to try. I had been to the site before doing research on my anxiety disorder. I felt that the understanding & support that you all offer each other might be something I could benefit from & possibly contribute to.
Keep in touch anytime & God bless you & yours.
Dee

Hello Dee
KittyKat
Saturday, August 25, 2007 at 05:26 PM

I've been on this site for a month and a few weeks now and I have to tell you this site is the best support for depression site I have ever came across. You can truely be open here and not have to be worried about being judged because we have all been through our downs and ups on this site. This maybe a little off topic but that is the cutest cat and yes I am a cat lover too, I have four they are my four whiskateers in my life. I hope you find relief or answers, or a kind jester from a bad day on this site.
~Good day and Take care=)~

Kita

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Dee
Sunday, August 26, 2007 at 04:26 AM

Thanks SO much Kita, for writing back. It was great to see a response when I logged in tonight. I have to admit I did come to the site a few times before I finally registered. I got a good feeling from how supportive everyone seemed to be of each other. I hope to find the beggings of peace here. The road just seems so long.
Thanks for noticing my "baby". Whiteguy is one of my biggest supporters. His furry belly brings me much comfort.
Keep in touch anytime.
Dee

To Dee, with "GREAT LOVE AND CARING!!"
sissy2bfree
Sunday, August 26, 2007 at 10:22 PM
My dearest "Dee" ,,I write tis to you for your 'name 'caught my eyes,"my mama's name was "Dee", and my sister and I were so "blessed" with aprecious,"LOVING MAMA!!" But in June of 1998, she had a 'heart attack' and "4-way by-pass surgery! And this was at a time when I thought I would "die". But no one ever knew,for I am a person who "pushes things down" and "the show must go on!!"i was also going through a divorce after 34 yrs of marriage to a "young thing ;the same age a s my son! All of this had been going on for a long time,, but again,,,"pushed ti down and went on..My mama and I suffered through verbial and phsycial abuse and only "4" other people knew! ,,started as soon as I could remember{about one and a half years old! until he passed away afew years ago! but like you ,,"the cold hardcruelity of living the pain over and over again,,like you ;"it got me physcially too! Open heart surgery plus too many to go into!! I have studied very much in the medical field and especially what i read on the web doc. page concerning "DEPRESSION,MANIC DEPRESSION,BI-POLAR,,,"this ,that and these...i can not take "ANY ANTIDEPRESSANTS!!! and I have seen so many on so much medication they could not talk, walk ,,,"ZOOBIES",,,now all have liver problems ,kidney,stomach. I live alone with my cat,and thinking about getting a "babay kitten.It has always been just her and me and she needs to learn to "feel" for another as we humans should do!! Dee, "you will not want to hear this;"but my mama dying,"LOSING EVERYTHING IN THE DIVORCE DUE TO "FORGERY",,I came out with ,"ZERO". But ,I was always in church, and my FAITH IN ONE WHO LOVES ME,,"ME,A NOBODY", DIED FOR ME THAT I WOULD HAVE A HEAVENLY FATHER WHO TRUELY LOVES ME, AND JESUS SAID ,"HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME NOR FORSAKE ME AND "GIVE TO ME "HIS PEACE",,PERFECT ,PURE PEACE.YOU WILL NOT "FIND IT IN WORDLY THINGS,,"I KNOW,,I TRY THAT TOO" AS I SAID, "I CAME OUT WITH NOTHING BUT MY CLOTHES AND "2" DOGS!! BUT GOD SAIDS IN THE BIBLE ;"THAT WHEN PEOPLE /EMEMY TAKE,STEAL KILL FROM HIS CHILDREN,,,,"HE WILL "REPLACE 7"X"s" OVER BACK TO THEM /YOU,ME!! WELL. DEE,"MY GOD HAS DONE OVER AND MORE THAN "7X's FOR ME AND TO THIS TIME AS I WRITE THIS,,"HE STILL IS "BLESSING ME". "NO",I AM NOT "RICH IN MONEY,,"BUT RICH IN GOD'S LOVE THAT TOUCHED OTHERS AND I HAVE A "BEAUTIFUL HOME AND CLOTHES ,,,"FROM FRIENDS", GOD USES TO BLESS ME AND MANY OTHER PEOPLE....I know your pain,"have it to hit all the time,,"but i pray,and sing to the Lord and later i will wake up and "he has put me to sleep to "rest my mind,let me know "HE IS WITH ME!!!" this I know works!! for my GOD CA NOT "LIE",,only "FORGIVE AND LOVE YOU",,you have to "GO TO "HIM" FOR HE IS WAITING<<<KNOWS ALL ABOUT YOU NOW AND YOUR PAST!!1 AND "HE CAN CHANGE IT ALL AND GIVE YOU "A REASON TO GO ON" YES, WE WILL HAVE THE ANXIETY ATTACKS AND BAD FLASH BACKS, "BUT ,"DEE THOSE ARE NOT FROM "GOD",,santan loves "pain in a person's life! "STOP HIM NOW!! BY "39"STRIPES" ACROSS HIS BACK;RIPPING JESUS APART " WHY? FOR OUR HEALING!!! TALK TO A MINISTER WHO KNOWS AND PREACHES "GOD'S WORD! THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN "MAKE IT ",,, IS "WITH MY SAVIOUR!! MAY SOUND "STUPID,, "BUT, I AM A ALIVE BECAUSE "HE CONTROLS MY LIFE",,WHEN I THOUGHT I CAN NOT TAKE ANY MORE!!! BY MEDICAL STANDARDS ,,"I SHOULD BE DEAD,,"BUT, GOD KNEW,,HE WAS GING TO LET ME TELL MY STORY TO OTHERS AND HOW I AM MAKING IT THROUGH TIL "HE DOES CALL ME "HOME" TO LIVE WITH "HIM" IN PERFECT BEAUTY AND PEACE OF MIND!!! YOU ARE IN MY "HEART AND PRAYERS!!!! "MAKING IT!"

re: To Dee, with "GREAT LOVE AND CARING!!"
Dee
Tuesday, August 28, 2007 at 09:52 PM

May God continue to bless you so that you can share your story & His Word. I do know that my faith in God & the love of Jesus has kept me alive as well. I feel that perhaps I needed to hear from you & the others on the site to redirect my focus back to the church. Perhaps speaking to the pastor of my youth is what I need to do. I know I am not comfortable w/ "therapy", but I am comfortable w/ my pastor even though I have moved & no longer attend the church regularly. He was also my best friend's pastor & understands my deep grief following her loss this month. Thank you for your direction. God sends us all to each other for a reason. I know that in my heart.
Love & peace,
Dee

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sissy2bfree
Wednesday, August 29, 2007 at 09:09 PM
To Dee;My New Friend, "Oh, what a"thrill it was to me to "hear frm you!" Dee, "you are on 'the RIGHT PATH!'; Profession Therphy works for some,,"but to those of us who know JESUS as OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR; HE SAID , "MY PEACE I GIVE UNTO YOU < NOT AS THE WORLD GIVES!" This "world " knows "NO PEACE!" and you sure can't buy it!! My "pretend" sister called me this afternoon and we were talking about "HOW" can anyone "LIVE" without "JESUS" in their life? I know I would be "dead", for sometimes "memories flood over me til I think I can't take another "thought" and get in the car and just "floor board it and "go flying,,"well, I would be 'dead',so I don't know where it would "end up". But then "come the tears" and I feel in my heart THE HOLY SPIRIT'S TOUCHING ME and I begin to sing, from "JESUS LOVES ME to where I sing all and then ;;;"I realize;"I have asleep!!" and "NO MORE TEARS AND "PEACE AND I FEEL HAPPY FOR "DEE,{i LOVE your NAME! my "MAMA"S"},,JESUS GAVE ME HIS "PEACE OF MIND AND JOY TO BE "ALIVE" AND HAVE A NICE HOME GIVEN TO ME BY FRIENDS WHO "LOVE ME" JUST AS ,"ME" AND ALL CAME THROUGH AND BY "THE GREATEST LOVE THIS WORLD WILL EVER HAVE: JOHN 3:16; ON AN "OLD RUGGLED CROSS",,THERE IS WHERE WE GO AND "TELL JESUS ALL OUR SINS, BURDENS , HURTS AND SORROWS!!! And you going "back to your old "TRUSTED PASTOR" is the "SWEETEST MUSIC" GOD THE FATHER LOVES TO HEAR!" SEE DEE;"YOU HAVE CHANGED SINCE I READ YOUR 'COMMENT' AND IT IS BECAUSE YOU KNOW "WHO HAS YOUR ANSWER!!" Now; "get "ready for every kind of battle'satan can hurl at you to keep you from "GOING" TO YOUR PASTOR!! FOR "satan knows <"THERE HE IS EXPOSED AND DEFEATED!!! SUNDAY MORNING I WAS IN A HURRY AND thats one "thing I can not 'do' get "rushed", my mind goes one way,,"I GO THE 'OTHER'.And my sis picked me up and we got to church and I got out of the car and as I was walking to the church,"looked down,I HAD ON "BLUE SHOES" WITH A BLACK & WHITE DRESS! Pearls and all!!!{NOT REAL PEARLS!!} Anyother time I would of went to pieces and caome back home,,"but had been so long since I had been to "CHURCH",,,,"I CRACKED UP 'LAUGHING AND SHE ASKS, "WHAT'S WRONG W/U WOMAN???I said ,"Look at my "shoes",,,Now, she is "ONE STRONG WILLED PERSON" and she "knows me so well", just lughed and said,"nobody is going to be looking at your feet!! well, reason ,"WHY" WE LOOK JUST LIKE "TWIN SISTERS" AND SHE HAS A "TWIN SISTER" AND LOOK NOTHING ALIKE!THEY ARE "WONDERFUL TO ME!" FOR WE HAVE KNOW EACH OTHER SINCE WE WERE IN OUR 'TEENS' and they know "ALL" that was done to me!! It was very bad and I loss so much of "MY LIFE", but if "GOD" had not of gotten me out of the marriage; my husband would have "PULLED ME DOWN TO WHERE HE IS NOW!!!" GOD forsees "ALL" and "HE" will get his child out ,,,when "HE" knows it will cost "A LIFE" REMEMBER "ALL OF US MUST WORK TOGETHER TO HELP ONE ANOTHER AND I CAN ONLY "DO THAT THROUGH THE "LOVE OF MY SAVIOUR;"JESUS". WRITE ME BACK ! {oh, i got a yellow/orange kitten given to me today, looks just like "GARFIELD"!!He is about 6 weeks old!! and my Japanese BobTail Has "DECLARED ,"WAR"...SO, "Keep me in your "HAPPY THANKSGIVING PRAYERS{HAPPYTIME PRAYERS} I PRAY WHEN I FEEL GREAT TO GIVE "GOD" THE GLORY FOR GIVING ME "A LOVED FILLED ,HAPPY TIME FEELIN' IN MY HEART!!! I LOVE YOU Dee!