Monday, January 07, 2008
I feel so disconnected from the rest of humanity. I am tired of all of it.
This is supposed to be the new year...a fresh start, a new beginning. Where did my spark for life go?
Nobody listens. My wife seems to think that I am not happy with her when I am "this way." She doesn't understand that it's not about her. It's about me.
Maybe I should try to get back on the Celexa. I've been off of it for about 10 months or so. I don't know.
I feel like such a failure. I just want it all to be over.
Gary
You are suffering from major depression...all the symptoms are there. Get back to your doctor ASAP and get on something to lift your mood. You and your family deserve a well you! I know when you are in the depths of depression it seems like there is nothing you can do.....that is what your brain tricks you into thinking. It also tricks you into thinking nothing is worthwhile....don't be tricked, it is the depression talking. Get back to the doc and get some seretonin happening in your brain! Get out and go for a walk, get some light if you can. Life can be better and it will be better. If Celexia works for you then great...you are better off than a lot of others. Otherwise ask for something different. I have been on medication for 16 years. I won't go off it because it works and because i don't want to live with depression. There is no shame in taking the medication....it is like insulin for a diabetic. We have a shortage of brain chemicals and need our medication. Good luck...time for action NOW! Rusty