I'm not going to give you the usual platitudes about "hanging in there" or "things will get better" because I've been to the depths of despair and those words don't mean much when you're that low. I'm also not going to say - "go ahead and do it" because at my age (48) and also having fought depression since I was 14, I know that perhaps, with hard work and a little luck, you may be able to beat this monster.
Instead, I want to ask you a few questions. What treatments have you sought? Have you tried medications? Is there anyone you trust enough to reach out to? Because before giving in, there must be one more treatment or medication to try or a friend who will listen to you to ease your agony. Don't give up without trying everything first. Suicide is alway an option. It can be done now or a few days, months, or years from today. But once the deed is done, there are no more chances at life. It's all over.
Staying alive for your family is a great reason. My brother committed suicide when I was 25 and he was 21. Let me tell you, it destroyed the family. My parents divorced soon after. I was in college and doing great until his death. I was devastated and couldn't concentrate on school. I left college 'for a short break" to get my head together. I never went back. The survivors live with the guilt that perhaps they could have done something different to keep him alive. 23 years later, I think of him daily and still have some guilt. More than anything, he has missed his brothers and sisters getting married. He has missed the births of his nieces and nephews and so many holidays. I know you think there is no future for you. But, at my age, I know differently.
Another reason to stay alive is to not let your father win. He has done this to you. He has predicted your future. Prove him wrong! Fight hard, work hard, fight the pain but don't let him win! By accepting the "fact" that you are a miserable person, you have lived down to that statement. You can be happy, you can be what ever you choose to be. Choose to survive. Choose happiness. Get angry at your father and use that as motivation to live.
For now though, you really, really need someone to talk to before it's too late. Call the suicide hotline, call 911, call someone, anyone before you do something out of desperation. Go to the ER and talk with the pretty nurses, eh? Having been in your position, I know you should not be out on the streets. You are too close to death. If you have just a little fight left in you, check yourself into a hospital. Give yourself, and life one more chance. You can always change your mind later.
I won't lie to you. From where you are now to happiness that you deserve is a long, slow fight. But I promise, it's worth it. I know. I've seen both sides. Death is too final. Give life one more chance!
Curt
I'm not going to give you the usual platitudes about "hanging in there" or "things will get better" because I've been to the depths of despair and those words don't mean much when you're that low. I'm also not going to say - "go ahead and do it" because at my age (48) and also having fought depression since I was 14, I know that perhaps, with hard work and a little luck, you may be able to beat this monster.
Instead, I want to ask you a few questions. What treatments have you sought? Have you tried medications? Is there anyone you trust enough to reach out to? Because before giving in, there must be one more treatment or medication to try or a friend who will listen to you to ease your agony. Don't give up without trying everything first. Suicide is alway an option. It can be done now or a few days, months, or years from today. But once the deed is done, there are no more chances at life. It's all over.
Staying alive for your family is a great reason. My brother committed suicide when I was 25 and he was 21. Let me tell you, it destroyed the family. My parents divorced soon after. I was in college and doing great until his death. I was devastated and couldn't concentrate on school. I left college 'for a short break" to get my head together. I never went back. The survivors live with the guilt that perhaps they could have done something different to keep him alive. 23 years later, I think of him daily and still have some guilt. More than anything, he has missed his brothers and sisters getting married. He has missed the births of his nieces and nephews and so many holidays. I know you think there is no future for you. But, at my age, I know differently.
Another reason to stay alive is to not let your father win. He has done this to you. He has predicted your future. Prove him wrong! Fight hard, work hard, fight the pain but don't let him win! By accepting the "fact" that you are a miserable person, you have lived down to that statement. You can be happy, you can be what ever you choose to be. Choose to survive. Choose happiness. Get angry at your father and use that as motivation to live.
For now though, you really, really need someone to talk to before it's too late. Call the suicide hotline, call 911, call someone, anyone before you do something out of desperation. Go to the ER and talk with the pretty nurses, eh? Having been in your position, I know you should not be out on the streets. You are too close to death. If you have just a little fight left in you, check yourself into a hospital. Give yourself, and life one more chance. You can always change your mind later.
I won't lie to you. From where you are now to happiness that you deserve is a long, slow fight. But I promise, it's worth it. I know. I've seen both sides. Death is too final. Give life one more chance!
Curt