I have been trying to stay out of the tunnel of darkness. Have a good job, but a lot of changes are going on in my job. Work for a non-profit that does great good. The overwhelming feeling of never being finished is putting it mildy. Have so much work and not enough hours in a day to finish the work. My co-workers are the ones with the MSW and I am the one with life experience. They are busy saving the world and I am the one doing the management of the apartment units of persons they are helping. While I am very pleased that they all have pretty little diplomas my experience is life. Spent twenty plus years married to an abusive partner. While in so many way I know that I am a stong strong girl....they make it pretty plain enough that I have no education. It is like being married all over again. They have mental fatigue, my fatigue is mental and physical. I keep going for the women and the children. It has taken me many years to realize after being told you are dumb and stupid that I am not. Go to sleep tired and wake up tired. I feel like the hamster on the wheel. Have stopped eating and just feel so hopeless and trying not to turn the anger and hurt in on myself. Feel totally alone.

Jan