Not sure

I have been living with depression/bipolar depending on the doctors feelings for the days. My life has been a roller coaster since April. I sent my youngest off to boot camp and a hour later was diagnosed with breast cancer. I have had 35 radiation treatments and still going. If this was not enough my oldest son had a very serious accident and has had to learn how to walk all over. Things are starting to wind down. It is the times that I am alone that are the worse. I feel like a burden to people all of the time. It is just like really crazy all of the time for me. Have not been able to get myself together with my meds. I forget to take them and then its to late. On the outside it looks like I am handling things so well..but in the quiet moments is when its not okay. It is getting harder and harder to get up and get going. I just want to stay sitting in my dark house in my nice chair. I just not sure how to get myself on the right path. Any ideas?

J