Hi all

i was raised without my mother since i was 5 years old. from then i went to my aunts house in which she wanted to keep me but father would not let her he soon sent for me when i was 10 so i did have a good 5 years of childhood

once moved in with father it was a whole new life he was bipolar and self medicated with alcohol and drugs and such. i was scared half of the time. he was very abusive to me and my brothers mostly my middle brother i dont know why but that is hwo it was older brother was never home.

he got sick when i was 13 and passed away and i was happy he put us through so much with his drinking and abusiveness, especially wiht me and middle brother

finally after his passing i went out on my own my brother always kept an eye on me here and there when i would listne. i knew i had soemthing wrong with me i just knew i was different to everyone else and such

it didnt take until i was older and going through a divirce and seeking counseling did i find out i was depressed and had BP. for all iw ent through and such i didnt even belive it it took a lot to get me to take meds and such after all i made it through quitting school and having my own apt.. at the age of 15

so anyways i was going through a divorce and felt terirble about it i had chaeted it was when i was manic i am back with the same man we are remarried thanks goodness he took me back after 9 long years with my son alone.

i amm currently and am stable for the last 4 years and such i thought i could come here and get some info and help someone if i can and receive help if need be.

thats all for now

hope someoen read this

lol jan (((((((((((((huggies)))))))))))))