Kelti1952

By Kelti Wednesday, August 05, 2009

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Hello everyone. Well here I am in another bipolar depression. Just peachy. It has been sneaking up on me for a while now.My bipolar is mixed episodes, with panic disorder. I also have very long stretches of insomnia. Go figure. I did the dishes tonight. That was a miracle. My psyc just added depakote to my lithium and wellbutrin because of the insomnia. I was jittery too. But, the jitters are gone and I am left here just staring at this depression now. I called my psyc. I think the depakote needs to go, but that's just me. I have great difficulty in tracking my symptoms because of the mixed thing. It is a nightmare. I am scared. I know how severe a bipolar depression can get. Lived there for 3 years one time. All I know for sure right now is I still have insomnia and the depression is really bad. I am 57. I live in OK. User name Kelti. Hope to hear from someone. I am a Trained Facilitator and Chapter Leader for Depression and Bipolar Support.Alliance. God, I hope I dont get so sick I have to step down, but if I do, I will. Those people need me. Well, Ive been there. Now I need me, and them....

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Merely Me, Health Guide

8/ 5/09 6:18pm

Hi Becky!

Welcome to My Depression Connection.

I am glad you are here. Seems you are going through a bad patch right now. Let's hope it does not last too long. What does your doctor say about your current mood? Have you had any success in the past with a certain medication combination? What has worked for you in the past to get through a depressive episode?

Try to be kind to yourself...ask for the support you need at this time. People will understand.

Please write more about what is currently going on with you...we are here for you.

Kelti

8/ 5/09 7:17pm

I have been taking lithium and wellbutrin for about 5 years. I have been symptom free all that time. Now it seems like everything is going wrong. Meds petering out on me or I have no clue. I have been searching for info that said depakote is for bipolar depression (as well as mania). I finally found it so I feel better about taking it now (a little).I talked to my psycs office lady today and she has moved my appt up tp this Friday. That makes me feel better. With my symptoms being of a mixed variety it is hard to know what is really going on with me. Everything is garbled. I hate that. My hubby helped me get up and out of bed today! That worked very well because I got to bypass that ole magnet that holds me down to the bed therefore the black thoughts and fear.

Kelti

jdh

8/ 8/09 9:08am

Hi,

I was diagnoised bipolar when I was about 23 after a suicide attempt. It has taken me many years and many visits to my doctors and therapists to get to a place where I am comfortable with who I am and learn to accept bipolar as a part of me. I think that is the biggest part of it. To accept it as another piece of what makes you who you are and put it into a more positive perspective. Sounds easy..takes sometime to accept. One big thing is find the right drugs. It may take a few different times and combinations. You may feel terrible. There are things you need to consider. Weight gain? If this affects your self esteem, make sure non of your drugs causes it. But when you find the right combination, which you do not have yet, you will know it. You will feel great. Once that happens, you will feel so good, you will think you don't need the drugs any more... thats when you know you have the right combination. But absolutely fight the urge to stop taking them. You will miss the "highs" as things even out. Life won't be perfect. You will still be emotional, but you will be able to function. I try every day..Focus every day..take all my meds every day.. You will find this place. You need to find the right meds and accept this part of yourself and get to know it.

Kelti1952

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