hi, starshine here, i took back my power from the woman who tried to rape me, i went to the building and went to see my therapist. i will not let all of our good work go down the drain, because of her illness, i spoke with the head of the board of directors, and he told me that they have put safe guards in place and she is not allowed on the property if she does come she will be arrested.

i had to go to my spritual place and do work alone until my appointment and i have forgiven her as she is deeply in her illness, but sexually assault anyone is a crime and the crime i donot forgive and that will be dealt with as well. I was told to call when i am half way there, and an escort will meet me outside to go up to my appointment, and i will not wait outside for my ride they will call and let me know they are there and someone will go down with me.I thought about it, and i told my therapist that she is probably more afraid of me or trying anything than i am afraid of her, she has everything to lose, her housing, her freedom, and forced mental health care on a locked ward with bars on the windows, i wouldnt wish that on anyone but that is what she faces when a whole agency has taken steps legally and because of her history can be involuntaryily commited by any of the psychaitrist there. I feel as if I am standing up for all the times i had been abused for anything, and i feel by not running away from a very dangerous situation i stand up for women who have been through this and men as well let us not forget they are raped and abused aas well gay, straight, women abuse their husbands too and gay men abuse their partners as well, becasue these abusers are bullies and are ill every day it is on the news, yesterday am stpfather made a wee baby drink gin and sweet tea, she may have permanant brain damage and is lucky to be alive, the mother had no comment, love doesnt hurt, and why women are prey i dont know but i am convinced that this abuse is an illness. mis-treatment of children and women why? why? why? and why women stay with the abusers or choose them over thir chidren i dont know, except they dont have self esteem, we need more role models for young girls and women so they wont let a man make them feel they must cater to what the man wants. I am still overwhelmed by disrespect, abuse, theft of mail where i live as people look for drugs to sell and the owner says its not his problem, lovely apartments great facade but i do fear some of the folks here, so i stay to myself until i can somehow to move out of here. well thats enough for now just wanted to update

my friends here who support me.  peace to you all starshine