im not sure if i am depressed or just over acting, but it everything happened, when my dad introduced me to his new girl friend, he did this alot, every now and then i would meet another one of his girlfriends then they would just break up again, but she was could kim. kim had three kids, tu tu, kieran and qiyamm the youngest was qiyamm(3). when i meet them, they were lovely, qiyamm would always make me laugh and kim was like a second mum to me. it was about a year later, we were closer then ever, then kim and dad broke up, it was ok because me and kim still kept in contact, and my dad was still friends with them. one night we all went for a meal, and kim asked me the question that lighted up my life, if i would be qiyamm's god mother, i said yes of course! then came christmas, and kim gave me a letter reading: laura, words can never express how dear you are to all of us, from the bottom of our hearts, we love you so much, love always, kim. i thought it was just a cheesy christmas card, but it wasnt, it was a goodbye card, but i only knew that 3 months later. things at school before all this happened, was greet, everything was going well and i hung out with very nice friends, but then my dad told me kim and the kids moved back to there home town and are never coming back. i guess it was then my life was turning around. my heart was truely broken, i cried every night, i still am, i look at that card every day just hopping they will come back, but i know they wont. when i got back to school i was very annoyed, with myself and kim for leaving me, it didnt help that dad had a new girlfriend already. i started to act up in lessons, being warned for hanging around with the wrong people, i drunk a couple weekends ago on a beach with all these chavs, ive started smoking and i havent seen my dad in ages, i dont know what im doing, my life has changed completely, my 'friends' talking about me behind my back, and i just think im alone in the world. all this has got to stop, but i just dont know how. im 14 and i know what ive done wrong, i cant be bothered with all this, your to young to do these things, i just need to find a way to stop thinking about kim and the kids.