My heart aches for you--I can't imagine the pain of losing your husband and I want to reach out to you in some way.  I wouldn't presume to give you advice--I will just share with you some of the things I do to fight with my depression.  First thing is I take my meds!  I never forget how bad it can get, so if you aren't seeing someone or don't have a doctor--I can't say "get one", but I will tell you that I did!  I'm remembering the time just after my mother died when I thought I would never have energy and be happy again.  Friends took me places--to lunch--to shop--to talk--and that kept me moving.   I think that's important--just keep moving.  I have years of living with depression in varying degrees.  This is what I do when it's bad.   Try to go on automatic pilot--get up; brush your teeth; shower; dress;  eat; do something--anything--change the sheets; do a wash; fold it and put it away; go outside; walk once around the outside of the house; listen for birds;  rest; eat again; go to the library or the mall--someplace where there are people around; go home; rest again; eat again; be good to yourself and sleep.  If you can't sleep try listening to an audio book on tape or some music.  I often put myself back to sleep listening to someone's voice read a book that I seldom remember!  There's comfort in the human voice.  When you take your walk around the house, look for a yellow flower or a butterfly.  If you can, find a support group and go to meetings.  Cry if you need to.  Don't give up--it won't always be like this!  That's the one thing I know for sure.  This will pass or at least change and there will be new challenges.  Don't give up.  Please.  I haven't lost a husband but I have lost and grieved much and things do change and I do have some energy and some happiness some days!  It's worth the fight.  Karen