recently, my best friend stopped calling me. i spent the past six months with nobody, searching for friends. the open wound in my heart hasn't even begun to heal. i can't open up to anyone i don't trust (this includes my mother...only). so i am extremely unhappy. i have nobody, i don't know what to do. i am a tormented soul, why does this trouble follow me? what have i done? did i do something to deserve this? i wallow in my sadness like nothning i can even express.