feeling ANGER

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So here I am again, over analyzing everything. I've been pretty angry lately and trying to figure out why. Just to explaine a bit about myself, I am a very caring person, if I see someone in destress, I would drop everything to help. I've had a lot of people that I don't even know tell me about their personal issues and I'm not very good with passing judgement on others....to me thats Gods job. So, back to the anger issue. When my last episode happened, someone hurt me pretty bad, but out of this, I started to look at my whole life and where I was headed and the mistakes I made in my past. In a since, me being hurt made me stop and try to get my life back on track. I went throught the whole sad and crying over anything time, then there was the trying not to think about anything, to now being angry. I feel that by me being nice, people have taken advantage of that....even my children. Of course, I'll never turn my back on them, but I am angry. I'm angry at certain people that wern't honest with me and caused the pain, I'm angry at the people that talk over me, or don't take me seriouse. I know that part of this is my fault for not putting my foot down, or not listening to my instincts, but I don't care who is to blame anymore. I don't want to waist my energy on this negativity......I just don't know how to stop the frustration. Yesterday was pretty hard for me. I came to my room and just wanted a couple hours to maybe watch a movie, or take a nap......I had 7 missed called and I don't know how many missed texts. I think maybe I need a brake form everything, maybe a day to myself. Now I'll need to try and figure out how to do this, because of course, someone needs my help (son). I can't change who I am, but I need to change my actions and trust in others.......I'm just trying to figure out how.