Information and opinions on Depression from moonflowers at MyDepressionConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/93008/checking Sun, 01 Nov 2009 11:32:30 -0500 moonflowers <!-- @page { size: 8.5in 11in; margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } --> Hi Everyone,   Once again my life has kept me busy and unable to do anything eccept what was nesseccary. Man things got really rocky last week, I really don't know how I got through it...lol...seriously. I have been dealing with my mom's move and the kids and my grandkids and my grandkids mothers. I keep trying to figure out why I am always the... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/93008/checking http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/91769/feeling-anger Thu, 22 Oct 2009 11:52:42 -0400 moonflowers <!-- @page { size: 8.5in 11in; margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } --> So here I am again, over analyzing everything. I've been pretty angry lately and trying to figure out why. Just to explaine a bit about myself, I am a very caring person, if I see someone in destress, I would drop everything to help. I've had a lot of people that I don't even know tell me about their personal issues and I'm not very good with passing... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/91769/feeling-anger http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/90811/thinking-loud Thu, 15 Oct 2009 01:18:21 -0400 moonflowers <!-- @page { size: 8.5in 11in; margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } --> I wanted to wright about when I was going through my withdrawal's and how angry and defeated some of my postings were. I go through a sort-of on again, off again type of depression.....never really feeling happy, but some days are way better than others. I was really angry at the doctor that prescribed the Effexor during my last treatment that made me... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/90811/thinking-loud http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/90546/feeling-today Tue, 13 Oct 2009 09:48:56 -0400 moonflowers Hi All,   I haven't had time to post lately........can't seems to find time.  I am feeling soooo much better.  No more dizzies, nausea.....ect.  I still feel at times that I have to really consintrate on things, but not nearly as bad as in the beginning.  I started scaring myself when my mind wasn't able to comprehend to what I was reading, or someone was trying to explain to me.  I still feel that my anger is... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/90546/feeling-today http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89717/selfish Tue, 06 Oct 2009 23:50:13 -0400 moonflowers I'm so irritated tonight.  I feel so selfish with my thoughts.  I have given up everything to rais my kids.  I did this because I love them and chose to bring them in this world.  Nothing was ever easy, or plush in our home.  But what I did give them was love and security.  My youngest is now 14 and venturing away from the "nest", so I figured it was okay to start thinking about my future.  I'm taking 2 classes... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89717/selfish http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89547/venting Mon, 05 Oct 2009 20:45:26 -0400 moonflowers I've been having a pretty hard time today.  I don't understand where all of this anger is coming from?  It seems that everyone just thinks I'm a machine.  Every time I tried to lay down and rest over the weekend, someone would need something.  Everything that anyone asked me to do was important, so I did it.  My boss was out Friday and today, so work was pretty stressfull today.  Then to top everything off, I'm... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89547/venting http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89424/updates-life Mon, 05 Oct 2009 00:49:08 -0400 moonflowers Hi Everyone,   I have been soooo busy.  It's funny how one minute there's nothing to do (I start over analyzing EVERYTHING) and the next I can't keep up.  As far as the withdrawal symptoms, they are slowly going away. It still takes a lot of consentration when trying to do homework.....for something that takes an hour, I'm spending about two at it.  I have no more nausea and the vivid dreams have went away.  I still... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89424/updates-life http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89075/positives-day Fri, 02 Oct 2009 00:50:06 -0400 moonflowers I am tired and was still thinking of my boss when I wrote my last post.  I vented and forgot to try and think of the positive. I would say this positive is felt in a wierd sort of way, but while I was at the Stanford cancer center I saw some really sick people.  There were some cancer patients that come from all over to have treatments done at this hospital.  I saw women that have lost all of their hair, some were extremly... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89075/positives-day http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89066/boss-nerves Thu, 01 Oct 2009 23:05:12 -0400 moonflowers Hello,   Oh my gawd what a looooong day.  So I need to vent a little and I may be wrong, but I don't feel that I am.  Today my mom started her new treatment for the rare kind of skin cancer she has, it called the Sezary Syndorm.  I ask my boss about a week ago if it would be okay if I left work early to go with her to the cancer center and there was no problem.  Tuesday my mom found out that it really wasn't going to... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/89066/boss-nerves http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/88967/1-goal-set Thu, 01 Oct 2009 09:50:07 -0400 moonflowers I've set a goal for myself and it seems that if I actually write it down and others can read it, maybe I'll try harder. My 40th b-day is coming up 2.27 and I was thinking that I want to go into my 40s feeling better about my health and weight.  I had forgot about this goal lately and what slapped it back in place is that I made the dumb mistake of weighing myself in class yesterday.  I knew that I gained weight but though that if I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/701438/88967/1-goal-set