I was trying to upload a new icon/avatar and instead I got an error and my old one disappeared... .. that was a few days ago.. and I still can't upload a new one.. that's annoying.... but everything is today for some reason.

I got the stitches out today- I hope all ends up well with my hand, but I do know already all the numbness and tingling I was living with stopped immediately after the surgery.. I noticed that in spite of the pain I figure that's a good sign. The NP said it looks good - but I still can't lift, push, pull etc.. anything over 2 pounds for a couple more weeks until the doc sees me and gives me the all clear for all normal activities.

Today has been the most pain free so far.. and all that icky bruising has started to fade away finally. The wound still looks pretty gross in my opinion but I'll believe the NP when she says it looks great.

I have been all irritated though... everything is annoying me and frustrating me.. which means the depression is just lingering below the surface. I am having one of those days when every little noise is an irritation reminding me of negative things.... and if my daughter squeaks that freaking bed we use as a sofa one more time I might scream.

I feel all disorganized and disgusted with everyone, including myself.. it's such an unpleasant feeling :(