dont know what to do

i had appointment with my disability employment provider today my husband would not take me telling me to get over my self,so i caught the train, i have a dermatitas which the doctor says all in the brain but results in me scratching my self until i bruise myself  or start bleeding, managed with a lot of scratching and being so tense all my muscles ache.It hurts that my husband said that  to me also telling me our daughter wont talk to us because of me and how i am. I am so down. I dont want to harm myself but at the same time i dont want to be here.i am so lonely and dont know who to turn to. i thought my husband understood how was but it looks like i was wrong, he also said i should go off my medication because i was using it as an excuse, he has seen my panic attacks but he just does not seem to care, am very sad