Thank-you for showing this video.  I rarely cry anymore and I happened to flip open my computer during one of my "dead zone" periods where I walk a round like a zombie in a coma unable to feel or make myself do anything. 

I try to drink to arouse my ambitious nature but nothing comes to surface, and I merely walk from one place to another finding I've just made a circle back to misery (I try to keep a sense of humor). 

 When I watched the video, I realized how sick I am right now.  The tears began to flow. It all makes sense.  I knew I was becoming messed up again, but it is different this time and I didn't recognize certain key components to why I feel taken down so hard.  I mean I think I knew but I think it just got validated hearing others go thru it.

My biggest fear, is that I'm not a young chickie anymore and am not as mentally and physically fit to take on anymore challenges to become a better person.  I'll be dead before I get there though if I can't overcome this. Know what I'm sayin'?

Thanks for the video and thoughtfulness to send it out and help us all.

Cinderella