My family doesn't understand. My mom critisizes left and right about my emotions.I explode and it makes it worse.The onslaught of guilt usually kills me.I think about sex all the time.I am not sexually active.I don't want to ruin anybody elses life.

Mines ruined enough.Friends say they care but aren't there.I live with my mother she says she loves me and hugs me sometimes.Not nearly enough.Growing up I had to be especially good to get a hug.

I'm impressed by Sarah,Cheers for her.

I was brought up being told I'm stupid and ugly.I never brush my teeth.I comb my hair when i am able.

I thought about cutting,I knew some girls in the hospital that did.

Its good to be informed.

My profile picture makes me sick.My current glasses are ugly.

I look at naked women on the internet because i dont want to ruin anybody elses life.

My body is falling apart and music is very liberating,it gives me energy.If only i could find another way......

Jon