Someone once said "Most people live quiet lives of desperation." Sadly, they were not too far off. Whatever the reason which got us to where we are -- we are here. We are probably our own worst enemies. Not because we brought on the problems we have, but because we keeping thinking, "if only I..." and we think if we try hard enough we will get better. Whatever lead to the chemical imbalance doesn't change where we are and the imbalance is not change by will power. The will power is needed to keep going each day, keep taking the medicine, keep caring. Many people take medicine every day to stay alive; is it so much that we take medicine to keep our minds alive? Be strong. His servant.