Hi, there.  I'm sorry you just had to go into the hospital again.  Ironically, it seems like the place that should help you feel better often feels like the place you just want to escape from!  I was in the hospital for a couple of days in August for something non-depression related and they wouldn't give me my antidepressant until the last day.  No good reason given, either.

I hope you will continue to feel better.  Sometimes it seems like the biggest thing we have to learn is how to manage the symptoms when they occur, like a chronic illness, yet try to live our lives as if we have no fear of it returning.  It's kind of hard to do that, I know.  It can get to be a habit, looking around every corner for some sign of its return.  I hope you're seeing a therapist to help you with this; I've found that the years have taught me a few things about dealing with it.  I used to go into a panic if I became depressed, the same way I did if I got a cold or the flu.  Now, I know what I need to do if that happens and that it will take some time to wait it out, whether it's a change or increase in medication or something I need to address in therapy.  Hang in there, and I'm glad you let us know how you're doing.

lonelyone

11/27/11 1:00pm

Thank you Judy for your advice. I will get a therapist Monday, I just hope they will help.