made it through the night.

work was insane tonight, and I was ready to just walk out of there. I'm ready to just quit. there were a lot of other thing contributing to my stress tonight besides work, but I just don't have the energy to go into them and think about them. I don't have the energy to do anything anymore. No matter how exhausted I am, I can't sleep. I'm never hungry anymore. I've eaten one thing all day and I don't feel hungry. I've got a stomach ache and I feel bloated and gross. Things with my family haven't been going to well lately. Not that I usually get along with my mom, but she's been really pissing me off. It's like she's always trying to say the wrong thing to hurt my feelings.

I'm calling my doctor tomorrow, but I don't know when she'll be able to give me an appointment. I'd love to see her now, but most people are asleep.

I can't do this anymore. I've lost the will to live completely. Even the people that I love aren't enough to keep me here anymore, I feel like they cause me more pain than good. I don't want to be alive anymore.