i'm starting to move into my apartment tomorrow morning. while I've been doing better since I got home from the hospital, I've been feeling really run down lately. I've been really good with taking my meds since I got home, I haven't missed a day. I just haven't been sleeping regularly and I'm constantly exhausted. They gave me provigil to give me an extra boost, but I feel like it's not working. I was thinking about that today when I realized that I was so worn out because I never eat anything. My eating disorder is starting to get out of control and take hold of me and I think I'm close to getting really sick. I just cant get myself to eat anything. Sometimes I want to blurt it out to my parents but I'm afraid that they wont let me move out if I tell them. They're already reluctant because of the hospital thing.
I don't know. Lately I've been wanting to shut down and disappear into my bed for a week, but I don't have time for that. Classes start in a few weeks and I need to get myself settled into this apartment.
Hi there
I am thinking that this is a good thing...to move into your own apartment...it can be a very exciting time. Do you have help moving? Supports?
I am glad you are taking your meds as scheduled...it is good to have consistency.
Tell us the things you are looking forward to with this move.
And please do eat...you need to eat to have energy.
Let us know when you are all moved in...I am happy for you.
I am happy for you too! I'm also glad that you are compliant with your meds. I know that that really makes a difference. I too, do not feel well when I don't eat. My problem is finding something that I want to eat in my house and not have to fix. That is when I miss my mother in law the most. Although, I mainly got the royal treatment after I had some of my babies by C-section or live out of town.
Good luck with your new classes!
This is to Angel, I am so glad you have learned about your depression at such a tender age. I have gone through depression again and again ad fin um. Drugs can help, but its finding the right combination and formula for you or myself. I certainly do not have a problem with eating, I am on a diet. Goodness I didn*t realize just how difficult it is to lose just 10 pounds. I wish you the very best, and I just hope and pray that college and your apt. and your family support sticks in there for you and things such as a beautiful exist for you. Keep posting please, people reall do care, I know I care and since I suffer as well in more than just depression, its just nice to listen and maybe say something nice for someone whom just may be having one of those down moments. The thing about depression is that I think it stays with us forever, but we learn to deal with it as we get older. I am 55 years old , so yeah I have been around the depression block more than I would like to say. I am pretty goood at present. Have a wonderful Holiday cheer. Someone whom really is in the realm and really does care for you.