Information and opinions on Depression from angelmaker at MyDepressionConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/83233/relapse Tue, 18 Aug 2009 02:04:26 -0400 angelmaker I've been really having a hard time lately. I don't think about killing myself anymore, but I do still think about hurting myself. I've been taking my medication everyday, but I'm not really feeling the positive effects of it anymore like I have in the past. On top of all that, I just realized that college orientation is less than a week away and classes start on the 31st. I'm scared that I'm not ready for this. If I can't get myself out of bed... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/83233/relapse http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/82745/stressed-moving Fri, 14 Aug 2009 01:22:34 -0400 angelmaker i'm starting to move into my apartment tomorrow morning. while I've been doing better since I got home from the hospital, I've been feeling really run down lately. I've been really good with taking my meds since I got home, I haven't missed a day. I just haven't been sleeping regularly and I'm constantly exhausted. They gave me provigil to give me an extra boost, but I feel like it's not working. I was thinking about that today when I realized... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/82745/stressed-moving http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/81672/finally-home Thu, 06 Aug 2009 21:53:49 -0400 angelmaker I spent the past two nights in the mental ward at the hospital. I really hated it there, I was so happy when they let me go home. But my doctors were worried about my safety, so they sent me there. They raised my dosage of cymbalta and gave me something new to get me going in the morning (I cant remember what it's called). My only complaint is that I'm having a hard time adjusting to the increased medication, I was really sick this morning and... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/81672/finally-home http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80981/made-night Sun, 02 Aug 2009 00:18:49 -0400 angelmaker work was insane tonight, and I was ready to just walk out of there. I'm ready to just quit. there were a lot of other thing contributing to my stress tonight besides work, but I just don't have the energy to go into them and think about them. I don't have the energy to do anything anymore. No matter how exhausted I am, I can't sleep. I'm never hungry anymore. I've eaten one thing all day and I don't feel hungry. I've got a stomach ache and I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80981/made-night http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80692/kicked-work Thu, 30 Jul 2009 20:59:06 -0400 angelmaker I went to work but they made me leave because I was crying. I'm so mad right now, I never asked to leave work and I was fine. My parents and my sister want to know what's going on with me, but I don't want to tell them. While I was waiting for my sister's house, I called my boyfriend to have someone to talk to, and he just threatened to tell them what's going on if I don't. I hate them all so much right now, I never should have said anything to... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80692/kicked-work http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80656/stress-work Thu, 30 Jul 2009 15:58:12 -0400 angelmaker so I'm sitting here before I have to go to work thinking about every thing that's been going on lately. not that I'm not constantly thinking about these things. last night I was talking to my boyfriend about how I'm struggling to not cut and he said that I should just shut up about it because it's driving him crazy. I know it's a lot to handle for him, but I thought that he at least understood that when I talk about it it's because I'm trying... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80656/stress-work http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80655/stress-work Thu, 30 Jul 2009 15:58:10 -0400 angelmaker so I'm sitting here before I have to go to work thinking about every thing that's been going on lately. not that I'm not constantly thinking about these things. last night I was talking to my boyfriend about how I'm struggling to not cut and he said that I should just shut up about it because it's driving him crazy. I know it's a lot to handle for him, but I thought that he at least understood that when I talk about it it's because I'm trying... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80655/stress-work http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80418/downward-spiral Wed, 29 Jul 2009 00:25:02 -0400 angelmaker Things have just not been going well for me lately- in basically every aspect of my life. My relationship with my boyfriend is terrible. He completely shattered all the trust I had for him when he left me, broke my heart, and then pressured me to get back together with him. He used to be so different, and he used to make me so happy. Now I feel like he's a person I don't even know, and then fact that he can't make me happy anymore kills me... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/80418/downward-spiral http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/78641/problems-eating Wed, 15 Jul 2009 11:33:47 -0400 angelmaker So, I think when I last wrote my boyfriend had just broken up with me. Well, we're back together now. He realized that he made a mistake and begged for me to take him back. So I decided to give him a second chance. I really hope can change like he promised me so we both can be happy together. Something that hasn't been going too well lately is the eating disorder thing. I really hate to eat. I promised my boyfriend last night that I would eat... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/78641/problems-eating http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/77145/eating-disorder Fri, 03 Jul 2009 17:44:58 -0400 angelmaker My boyfriend left me last sunday (father's day) which happened to be four days before our highschool graduation. My life has flipped upside down because of it. He has been my only friend for an entire year. I trusted him completely and he lied to me about everything. I'm doing better this week than I was last week. Last week I was completely suicidal and I made my friend Kris come get me so I wouldn't hurt myself. I was crying hysterically... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/75479/77145/eating-disorder