It would be nice if depressed people could just become better. Then we wouldnt have antidepressants. You know what you have to do.

Pat

Hi, I was thinking, too, that you might have post-partum depression.  I had it after having my first child, many years ago, and actually got through it by going to my regular doctor who gave me an antidepressant.  I only needed it for a couple of months.  I stuck it out for nine months before I finally asked for something.  First of all, my son was 4 weeks late, so by that time I was thinking I was some kind of freak and would be pregnant for the rest of my life.  Then it ended up being an emergency C-section, he had a collapsed lung, was allergic to milk, then soy formula, then had ear infections, etc., etc.  He cried all day.  I would cry when my husband went to work in the morning, then cry when he got home.  I was anxious to get back to work where I felt I would be more like my old self.  That did help, and we did get my son's medical problems taken care of, but it was so overwhelming.  Even if you have to take your baby with you, please get to your doctor or call him/her on the phone and ask for help.  You will feel so much better.  And, one more thing - most babies go through separation anxiety for a time, but they survive.  For YOU to survive, you need a break!  I have a 9-month-old grandson and he's gone through that, but grandmas can usually take it, they don't consider it a personal rejection.  Anyway, take whatever help you can get.  I hope you are soon feeling better.  It's the biggest change you will ever go through in your life, so go easy on yourself.  And keep writing here if it  helps.