I have suffered from depression and still do, but I have to admit that I am way better now than I was before. But then i get tired of the fight at times and how it sucks at times especially when I cannot enjoy anything at all. I am a University student and I love studying but I don't like the idea of work at all. I just love learning but only Philosophy and Sound Technology. I still want to die, but I do not want to kill myself while my parents are still alive because I imagine it might hurt them badly so what I am thinking of doing is to kill myself once they have died.
is that wrong, is that a sign that there is still a lot I should deal with when it comes to my illness?