Sheila, you are on the right track if you can just hang on to your positive thoughts. The key is that once you're on the track, take it in moderation and then don't get off. Going back to school is a great idea. I went back at 35. It forces you to keep moving and gives you something to focus on other than your pitiful life. Plus, it builds your self image and confidence which a lot of people with depression suffer from. Just whatever it is you choose to do, don't forget to do it in moderation. I went gun-ho and burned myself out physically because of the job field I ended up in and put myself back to square one. Once you are out there "Doing," it will help you get on with your life, so stay on the track! My circumstances I'm sure are very different than yours and a long story at that, but you can do it! Go get it! Whatever IT is! Take Care